It's February which means it's past time that I get around to my 2014 summary post.

If 2013 was the year everything changed, 2014 kept it up. 

I mean, come on! I started the year driving because of my internship. It's crazy! Till now, I can't believe that I've already driven for a year. Driving has to be one of my greatest challenge and yet, knowing that I conquered it (without getting into any major accidents!) has made me feel more confident about myself.

Internship was an eye-opener; it has totally changed the way I think about myself. I think I've finally internalised what Adhila and Eric have been telling me throughout our sessions together. Not only that, I've also found out what I truly want out of my life, what is important to me, what drives me. So, that has been an awesome experience.

Then, it was hectic uni life and getting back into the groove. In the midst of this was my 100 days of trial with boyfriend. It was truthfully, a terrible time. The anxiety, the helplessness, the hope, all bitter sweet but I guess, seeing that we did end up together, it wasn't too bad of an idea.

Relationships are all about ups and downs, wrongs and rights, trial and error. Despite all that, the fact that we made it to 10 months now is pretty amazing. :D There is no one (Kpop don't count!) I rather call boyfriend than you. 

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Popo Chen passed away. There are still days where I'm surprised by the fact that she's no longer around. I can still remember the day that I finally realized she was gone for good—daddy was talking about grandchildren and I thought Popo would be happy about that and then realised she isn't around to see them.

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I have finally handed up my thesis. Not my best work but it is now in the hands of God (please, I just want to pass!) and the lecturers who will mark it. Still, I am glad that this part of my life is over. I can no longer call myself a student.

Which means my next phase in life is starting or should I say, it already has? I'm not too sure about this part and honestly, I am in no great hurry to decide. I just feel like taking a break and doing what I want to do. Probably not the wisest thing but I feel like I need time to figure out what I am going to do next.

I've always thought being an adult was pretty clear-cut. Being able to drive would make me an adult. Earning a monthly income would make me an adult. Owning a credit card would make me an adult. Getting older should make me an adult. While they are milestones I am proud to have achieved, I found that none of them makes me an adult. In fact, I'm not sure I'll ever be.

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2015, I think will be a year for me. For me to learn about what I want, where I want to go, and what I want to do with pretty much the rest of my life.

I really hope I'll find the answer before the year ends.

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What is this? 

December already?

How can it be?

Alas, the calendar speaks nothing but truth for the 12th month of the year is already in its 4th day. I shall not lament about how time zooms by like a laser beam and leaves us so ever mercilessly.

I am merely here to bid hello, for I have been gone for far too long. I am here to say that things are going well, as well as change, nerves and pressure can be.

To say my procrastination is dragging me down is an understatement, I'm more like buried six feet deep and tied to something dark and heavy. I am worried, in a sort of back of my mind kinda way. Or perhaps I am just running away (ironically) because I think the answer will crush me, as it has before. I am not sure how to deal with it, the last time it happened, I somehow (Thank God) got a life jacket while drowning in my own tears. Not sure it's gonna happen this time again, actually no, don't want it to even be an option. It can't happen again. This struggle annoys the hell out of me. Urgh.

Okay, back to December and all the bright shiny things it has to offer. Looking forward to next week's escapade and Christmas! How can I be down when Christmas is just around?

This past 11 months have been a ride of new beginnings, new endings, new opportunities and new love. If 2013 was crazy, this year has been crazier (but like in a much better less-heartbreaking way).

I guess a review post will come up some time later, probably after the curse of my thesis(!) has lifted. Oh, this burden is damn heavy to carry.

Let's keep things positive yes?

 One more day to Friday! We can do it!

xoxo

And I'll write your name

And then, there was dinner with the girls on a public holiday. Didn't know it was a birthday dinner until they told me not to pay for it. :D that particular day was a bad one, so the girls (plus Jacky heeh) really made my day. 

Of course, cg celebrated with me too. Love the presents! Haha :D (Jill had inside source!)

And then, there was the birthday day itself where boyfie and I stayed at Aloft Sentral because I won a free stay there from a lucky draw in church. The hotel was pretty and I liked the interior design and the whole feel of it. No bathtub in their Loft Room though :(

Followed by dinner in Black Market at St Mary Place. Dinner was good, the ambiance was nice but the company was the best. Heeh.

Of course, there was a party where I got pretty high and everyone were sneakily happy about it. I had a really good time and I hope others did too. My last time getting this tipsy though, the effects are too terrible to go through again. Love and thanks to boyfie who took care of me the whole night.

And this ends my birthday post. One year older, one year wiser? Haha. As I look back, there have been so much that I have gained and I look forward for more. A big happy thank you to everyone who wished me, who celebrated with me, who prayed for me, who loved me.

Here's to a great rest of the week. Two more days to a long weekend yea. 

finally sort of learned how to make a gif on Photoshop. lol.

here's one I made from boyfie's birthday when his friends threw him into the pool. Not exactly perfect but since the process wasn't as complicated as I thought it would be; given time, I'll most probably make more. ^^

yes, this is #randompost. Needed somewhere to post the gif up. Heeh.

My last update was in April. That was a long time ago, isn't it? I apologize for not being around. Its not like I don't feel like writing anymore but perhaps I'm out living more now, breaking out of my antisocial self(?). Haha. Or its just getting a bf. Its quite fun. :D

Don't stare at the bears for too long. You might start hallucinating.

There was one time in late April where I drove my ass back to Ipoh to meet up with this beautiful woman and had a road trip up to Penang. First time driving to Penang, was a good experience.

We had our girl heart to heart talk on the drive back. It was a good time. And now that I look back, many things have changed. Or more like just one, but a pretty big one.

Moving on, I can't exactly recall what has happened. Seems like much but not really. Life went on as normal, I went for classes, started a part-time job that I disliked and ended, went out with the girls, went out with the bf, eat good food, play all night, the usual.

Most recent was celebrating Mummy's birthday in Signature @ the Roof. Not the best place to go, won't really recommend it to anyone. Food was mediocre, ambiance needs improvement but they did have creative cocktails.

"Special" Milo Ais

Nothing much else really. I'm in the middle of my study break right now, so I'm chillin'. Working on my thesis, that's the other thing I'm focusing on right now and making money (when I feel up to it).

Can't believe we're going into the seventh month already. I can still remember the first day of 2014 like it was yesterday and here we are going into July. I think I've done good so far, perhaps I have not achieved all my objectives but I'm getting there. Life is a journey, right?

and with that, I end. No, actually, I end with penguin kisses. #tgif

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