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All i have are words to take your heart away.
bye bye.
Thursday, July 30, 2009
You can shed tears that he is gone,
or you can smile because he has lived.

You can close your eyes and pray that he'll come back,
or you can open your eyes and see all he's left.

Your heart can be empty because you can't see him,
or you can be full of the love you shared.

You can turn your back on tomorrow and live yesterday,
or you can be happy for tomorrow because of yesterday.

You can remember him only that he is gone,
or you can cherish his memory and let it live on.

You can cry and close your mind,
be empty and turn your back.

Or you can do what he'd want:
smile, open your eyes, love and go on.

- David Harkins

***

Tevindiran, you are even more awesome person than MJ.
your presence will be greatly missed.

your going away taught me a huge lesson. unfortunately, this lesson came at too great a price.

today was the third time i've attended a funeral. unlike the previous two funerals, this was especially saddening. saddening because he was only 17, because he had so much to live for and no more time to do so.

to me, maybe he wasn't a friend, more like an acquaintance. a person i met just one year ago, i knew him to be a loud and lively guy. he always had a smile on his face and a streak to tease and joke with people, any people. i was flipping through my old notebooks today and i came across his name a few times. i never realised that we've crossed paths more times than i remembered.

he was just one of those people you don't miss. i think he truly lived the way he wanted and brought lots of joy and laughter to his family and friends. even i, someone not close with him now reminisce and remembers how he pestered me for his ping pong shirt, how he still bugged me after he got his shirt and how i spelt his name wrong the first time i met him. i picture his smiling face and get teary eyed knowing that i won't get to see it anymore.

death is something you can't get over. its something you carry and live with in hope that in you, his memory lives on. we'll take our time to grieve but soon, we should will move on because knowing Tevindiran, he would want us to do that and for him, we will do all the things he didn't have the chance to do and we'll make him proud. (:

after three funerals, one cannot help but to realise that life is really really too short to be taken for granted. this third one reminded me that it is so easy for someone to be taken away and never be returned and that nothing matters more than making the most of what we have now.

we should be grateful for the homework we have because it means we're alive. we should be grateful for the problems we face because it means we're alive. we should be grateful when we complain that we are too busy or too tired because it means we're alive.

when you look at the bigger picture, it doesn't matter how you did in your exams or how much money you have or don't have. it all boils down to the people around you, those who loves you and those whom you love and how you appreciate them before its too late. because it can be too late.

to all my friends whether we were close or not, whether we have lost contact or not, i truly appreciate your presence in my life. thank you so much for all the memories we had.

사랑해요!


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